Monday, August 15, 2005
it's was so bad yeaterday and i didn't even noe y. seriously i'm so sorry to all of u for how i acted to all of you i reallyso sorry
and thanks alot to all of u.
cause even if i didnt show it,i was so glad that u guys were tryin to cheer me up.
i'm really so sorry for how i acted but i just felt a big wave of emotions and at that time it was all just too much for me to not show it . i really don't get it but it just came hit me, affected me and injured me deeply.
i have just lost another mumthe one who was always there for me and i wish she was my mom again i wish wat i said could be taken back.
and i no i'm not angry with u, i would never be angry with u no matter wat.
anyway wat is done is done is that i wished i could take it back i'm so sorry wish that i could talk to someone again oh well bye.............................................
Monday, August 15, 2005
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
oh well tomorrow is the day my mom is leavin hope i'm ready for it. well she deserves the time to get away from me she will just blame me more and more if she stays. i guess it is better that way i dont noe how but yeah maybe.
i'm sorry for everythin i did to you i just got alot of things and i dont think we are just meant to be.....it was really hard for me to tell u but i just had to. u could have seen by now right i was so bad to you i'm really sorry and u deserve better seriously u do cause u are so kind,lovin and caring and u dont deserve a jackass like me i'm really sorry and i hope u understand.
things arent good for me anymore i guess i'll have to independent and all cant really noe where i'm goin but i hope i will find the right path one day. guess things like this are suppose to happen maybe for the better or the worst and there is nothin i can do about it
i hope u enjoy your go on and go to your daughter i dont want to care anymore ............ i hope your happy cause all i brought u was unhappines.....and u cant say u didnt say that cause i read at everything u said and even a fren noe's wat u wrote i hope your happy GOODBYE!!!!
Tuesday, July 19, 2005
Sunday, July 10, 2005
hey to guys for showing the bad face all day i didn't plan for me to be this way but things are really getting fucked up in my life and i just couldn't find myself to smile...... i hope that i did not affect any of you that is wanted to leave earlier so as to not spoil the rest of your day......
i'm so sorry for bein such a bastard to u on the phone ,but i'm just feelin really bad and i dont think u are the right person to talk to i'm sorry my darling itbut to tell u the truth i really need a break and i think it would be the best........
i really hate feeling this way but who wouldnt if your mom was goin to leave u to go to another country for good or maybe for a long while .. and would just blame u sayin that i'm a bad son and worst kid............... maybe i'm just over sayin things but it is the truth she is leavin me so she can find her happiness well hope she can find it i dont to see her anymore !!!!!!!!!!!!
oh yeah and my mom is right i am a bad child i'm a stupid kid who smokes and for it i got caught i'm so fuckin stupid and it is true i'm a fuckin trouble maker.and i'm only am good at gettin into trouble i really hate myself oh well........bye.................
how whould u noe how i felt if u dont even noe who i am
Sunday, July 10, 2005
Thursday, June 16, 2005
wat a long week it has been for me ,havent done anything but work the whole week i'm so damn tired . hahah but i dont noe why i'm not workin today but i think it is because of the alter boys hahaa oh yeah i lost my mp3!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ah shit oh well and it is the same place i lost my phone whch is in church ah!!!!!!!!!!!!! hahh ahahas and if my parents finds out i'm so dead. went jammin yesterday it was sooooooooo sucky hhaha and jonita came hahahaah wat the hell was she doin there hahah just kiddin ok hahhahaha goin jammin today and we must get our $13 room or it will be as shity as yesterday haha and we only have like only 3 more days to jam ............... we are sooooooooooooooo dead hahah alll must dance at the party ah hahaha ok gin to take a good relaxing time now hahah bye bye:)
Thursday, June 16, 2005
Thursday, June 02, 2005
today was a damn bad day well at least in the mornin..,...i woke up with my mum shoutin at me sayin y didn't i tell her that she was supposed to get my report book . well how could i tell her i was at my fuckin camp . and i tought my teacher would cal her cause i told my teacher i didnt tell my mum. i then got more irritated when my grandmother started makin so much noise........ well it never changes she always does that.
i then got na call from a friend of mine to tell me that he has a job for me so aftere had to rush of to go and apply for the damn job. and after i discovered that i didn't have enough coin's to take bus. well only for one bus trip. but i had to go to the bloody gangster land at bugis to go and get my specs.so i called matthew and asked him to wait for me at the st patricks bus stop so i can lend money from him. yeah i noe wat a waste of time but i had no choice or i will be starded at that fuckin bugis.
i noe i sound damn pissed but who wouldn't if u got woken up early in the mornin by someone who was shoutin at u. oh well i'm now at bryan's house and the rest are playin winnin 11 and i just heard a loud shot from them
"oh well ppl say that i live a nice life but it is not always so nice iof only u were me and then u would noe how i feel "
Thursday, June 02, 2005
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
hi everyone, today is like my first ever blog entry haha. anyway today was a damn fun day i woke early in the morning to go and play soccer . i tried callin matthew but that loser was still alseelp. and even after i called him he still went back to sleep but who cares hahah . we then met each other on 12 as usual and headed for marine parade thinkin we were late hahah. nick then gave me a ring and after, we met him hahah . we went to the court an we only saw eugene so guess wat we werent late afterall hahae then started playin soccer and after we went for a brake for a drink hahha but nick was supposed to buy eugene a drink but in the end forgot. poor eugene haha but it was ok haha we all then went to play lan where me and terry was vs matthew,nick and eugene it was damn fun cause u noe y? WE WON!!!!! hahah anyway after went to church for some reason and was supposed to meet matthew after but was to lazy after goin to play lan hahah . i got to stop goin.it is wastin too much of my money but it was fun hahah
in the end didnt go see matthew and went home hahah. then trina called and hung up such an ass oh well guess this was my day haha tommorrow goin for a job interview hope i can get it so i can buy my presents for matthew and melinda haha so kind right haha wat the hell hahhaha oh well good day and goodnight:)
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
this is like my 2nd or 4th blog. coz the other account sort of got hacked into. i think. hahaz. so yea. this one is permanent. i think. yea. i dont know what to say already. too tired. too lazy. so yea. bye bye.
Wednesday, June 01, 2005
